Trying to stay focused

In June, I wrote about being risk averse and about taking a huge risk and really, if I were honest, I guess I should admit that  while I tend to be very risk averse, I am sometimes averse to thinking some decisions through before I take them. All of the people who think I over think things, don't usually realize that I over analyze things, agonize about options but jump into something at the very last minute without actually thinking about it. I was telling a friend the other day that when I have two options, no matter which way I go, I will regret the decision for a few days and then get used feel happy about  the option that I picked. This is a problem, and yes, it happens because I over think every thing to death and I analyze every single advantage and disadvantage to each decision. Anyway, I'm bringing this up because I've had to make a decision and I've had people asking me how I've decided and I feel like a broken record saying, "I haven't made up my mind yet". It is an understatement to say that I'm bad at making decisions. Anyway all this thinking and decision making has made me ignore other important areas of my life. I moved a week ago and I still haven't unpacked. Most of my kitchen stuff is still in several boxes and its getting more and more difficult to find clothes to wear out of the several boxes, but I'm so consumed with weighing the pros and cons of the options available to me, that everything else has taken second place.

Paris Hilton loses cellphones on plane to Manila

And that, was a headline in my AP news app. Since when does Paris
Hilton make news headlines for losing her cellphone? After the Paris
Hilton sex tape, the Paris Hilton driving troubles now its a cellphone? What's next on
my AP app? Paris Hilton gets her nails done? And did you know she has
fans??How do these things happen? Who wants to be a fan of Paris Hilton?
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In the summertime the weather is fine. You can stretch your hands and touch the sky

Its raining cats and dogs (read severe thunder storm) and for once I'm
without my trusty green umbrella in my purse. And for once I decided
not to dash out madly in the rain. Since I stopped in the library to
return my books, I stopped to potter around in the library and now I'm
stuck. There is no power but hey! my blackberry has been stepping up
lately. Without a TV and internet, my blackberry has been my go to for
email, blogging, Pandora, iheartradio, the news and the occasional
youtube video. When I first decided to get rid of my internet
connection at home I figured it would help me get over my Netflix addiction to
"Psych" (How could anyone not love Shawn and Gus and their antics). But, as always, you move from
one addiction to another and I have gone back to my old love: reading.
Except this addiction is worse, I don't eat, I don't sleep, I ignore
my chores and only do what is most essential. All I do is read one
book after another. Meanwhile, I've lost my appetite and eat maybe
once a day. Yesterday, I found my self eating a big bowl of frozen
yogurt just to increase my calorie intake to 1000 calories. Maybe, this
"go back to a simpler life" is not a policy that I should
embrace. I think its time to put down the book I'm reading. Move the
six books that are sitting on one side of my bed. Unpack all my stuff
from the move (its been 8 days and most of my things are in boxes. And
I'm getting tired of finding only blouses and tops and no pants or
skirts), set up my kitchen, get some groceries, cook healthy food, clean my car and take
some steps towards the next phase of my life.
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Bone tired and overwhelmed

But still managed to smile and laugh, make jokes and be a good dinner
companion. I put my game face on today but moving is a minor form of
torture. Esp so when you realize that the house you are moving out of
is the best one in the complex. Thé usefulness of boyfriends during a
move is highly under appreciated.

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